I'm Going to Call It "Inconclusive"...

So now I guess I should back up a little and tell you how our great adventure began. If you've had any contact with us in the last year and a half, you've probably heard this story, so feel free to ignore this post. I promise not to be offended.

Jeremy and I decided that we wanted to expand our family in June of 2007. We had just returned from our FABULOUS trip to Europe and decided now is the time. Fast forward to July, 2008 - no baby and no reason why. I had spent the previous 13 months praying, and hoping, and wishing on every star, birthday candle, and lucky penny I could find. Then came the tears. I cried and made deals with God. I couldn't understand why He wouldn't give us a baby of our own. Jeremy and I were great with kids. The state of Colorado seemed to think I could handle an entire classroom of them, but God didn't think I could handle one of my own?!? I did a lot of talking about surrendering and all in God's timing, etc., but the truth is that I was dying on the inside. To top it all off, it was babypalooza around here. All of my friends were having babies, and while I was truly happy for them and loved their little ones endlessly, truth be told, I was green with envy.

In July 2008, JZ and I finally decided to see a fertility specialist. We did all kinds of tests (I'll leave the gory details out for the sake of family friendly blogging!) and the tests all came back clear. The doctor told us that was good news and bad news. There was no reason why we wouldn't be able to conceive, the bad news is that he didn't know why we hadn't already. In mid-August I went in for an HSG test. Basically they put dye into your uterus and fallopian tubes and take x-rays to look for blockages. My test came back clear - no blockages were found. In late August we set up an appointment with the specialist and he recommended that I begin Clomid. Clomid is a fertility drug that makes eggs more viable and 10% of the time causes double ovulation resulting in twins. At this point we were ready for anything! I had to have an ultrasound of my ovaries to make sure they were not enlarged. I actually said to the Dr, "Do you see a baby in there?" He told me that since it was only day 19 of my cycle, even if I was pregnant he wouldn't be able to see it. He ordered the Clomid and the plan was for me to call on day 1 of my next cycle, pick up the Clomid and begin it on day 5. For the first time I couldn't wait to start my cycle. We had a plan and I was ready to get going!

A week later (Sept. 7 to be exact!) Jeremy and I were having dinner at my parents' house. All of a sudden I felt sick. I felt like my entire dinner was about to revisit me. I immediately told JZ it was time to go home. As we were getting in the car he asked if there was anything he could do for me. I asked him to go by Safeway so I could get a pregnancy test. He told me he thought we should wait. After all, I wasn't late yet and he couldn't stand to watch me be disappointed yet again. I told him that this time was different, I had to know. Sweet man actually went and purchased it for me.

I immediately went home to take the test. I waited the endless 2 minutes and looked at the test. I thought I saw two lines (which I had never seen before!) but one line was significantly lighter than the other. Did that count?!? When I showed it to Jer he asked what it meant, I said, "I'm going to call it inconclusive." He told me to wait another few days and take the other test. Yeah, right! I waited all of 12 hours and took the second test the next morning. It looked exactly like the first one. I decided that was good enough for me, I was calling the Dr.!

See, it's tricky, huh?!?

The next day I called the Dr. and they had me come in for a blood and urine test. I couldn't believe this was actually happening! I hadn't started the Clomid yet and I had just had an ultraound 10 days earlier. I had to have been pregnant then! A few hours later it was confirmed - for better or worse, regardless of what happened, our lives had just changed forever. Our great adventure had officially begun!